I just want a place of my own

Based on the title, you know what I am about to say.

Recently, I have the urge to move out so badly, whatmore have a place for my own. Every time when I am about to leave work, the urge to go home decreases drastically. Is not that I don't want to go home as in go home but I don't want to go home, the place that just not belong for me. My parent's place is always a place that does not felt belong to me. I felt lost staying yet do I have a choice? Yes, I do but it pushes me no choice to proceed due to this pandemic. As I want to move out this year (2021) June or April, but now, how am I supposed to do?

I wish I can write some more yet I don't know what to say.

I just want to go home, my home.

A place I can call home.
 A place that I can be myself.
 A place that I can smile so widely without pretending.
 A place that I can laugh, dance and do whatsoever I love.
 A place of freedom.
 A place of solitude.
 
 Shortest writing for today.
 
 Sincerely,
 Girl who smile
 14th January 2021